#but it's sooooo important to me that i feel like i'm constantly moving AND. AND. constantly telling A Story.

[moe-broey]

Realizing. I don't make art to make something Beautiful and Breathtaking or even just kinda cool composition wise, no. I have some sort of affliction. I have to find a way to make this incredibly time-consuming endeavor as speedy as possible for the Sole Purpose of Putting Guys in Situations. That is my true calling. There's Guys in my brain and I just need to Get Them OUT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ And go go go gogogogogo go GOOOO GO NEXT THING NEXT THING I GOTTA. THE. SITUATIONS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ It's SO important to me..... One Billion Stories........... Infinite Amount of Situations....... featuring. My guiys.........

[running-with-kn1ves]

Walla....kn1ves....genius big brain yandere writer....i just (re)found your Yves work (im sure you saw me freak out in the tags lmao) if you have the time/energy/inspo pls i beg you for a speck, a crumb, a droplette, ANYTHING of my baby Yves x fem!reader. I'm not sure how specific is too specific but I have a truckload of daydreams and prompts for this man dc im down BAD BAD for the way you write him. I'm not sure if this is too specific of a request but can it be yves holding himself back constantly because he wants to *romance* the reader but its so obvious he's itching for more until one day he finally snaps and takes her (specifically him giving her his virginity and whoops maybe going crazy when he finds out she isnt one)? I'm just obsessed with his characterization and want to see him in a ton of situations and feeling/reacting to different things. The stern dom undertones his whole vibe has disguised by a friendly foreign guide 🥵 The drabble of him was sooooo good and such a tease of his personality, it's so enticing hahaha. If that prompt is no good or doesn't inspire you then anything else is fine and ofc if you have no inspiration for Yves at all then that's a-okay too!!! Thank you sooooo much for thinking up that beautiful man and sharing him with us!!! Hope you enjoy your holidays💞💞💞

A/N: Ugh I'm so sorry I took so long in answering 😭😭 I was gonna write like a whole piece but my time has been cut dramatically, so please accept this poor little piece!! I was honestly so overjoyed at seeing your tags, it makes me so happy to see people's reactions to my stuff ┗( T﹏T )┛I wish I could have more time to write for this because I love the concept, I'm a huge fan of the "mysterious foreign guide who's just a little too friendly" kind of trope. Thank you so much for your support anon and I hope you enjoy this!! OG piece here for any of you nerds!

TW: Kidnapping, implied dubcon/noncon, manipulation

It wasn’t hard to notice Yve’s shift in behavior. Well, this shift out of many. When you first met him, he gave off a kind, well-meaning but nervous vibe. He did his best to show you around, to make you comfortable and converse with you in english to the best of his knowledge. That kind persona shifted into something more… desperate; obsessive, once he brought you back to his apartment. He was still kind, still well-meaning and observant to your needs. He apologized profusely when you got upset from how he kept you from leaving, promising that you weren’t missing anything important in class and that he could show you real culture instead! What could you learn from a textbook that would be better than seeing the country itself?

But time and time again, Yves made excuses to keep you inside, to make you stay by his side whether through photoshoots or studying, with him as your “teacher”. You had to learn the basics before taking such a “big” step out into his country, right? Unfortunately for you, Yve’s only taught information on the most trivial subjects. From words like “textbook” to “glass”, you were able to make meaningless sentences that wouldn’t serve you well in conversing with native speakers outside of Yve’s little apartment. Sure, it might help you occasionally, but it got you no where closer to understanding Yve’s rushed mumbling and incoherent rambling. 

With your sudden move to his apartment and his new change in conduct, Yves had slowly become less generous. He didn’t make as much of an effort to talk in english anymore, and made far less points to explain himself. You couldn’t tell what caused this new change-- a change that you were soon starting to accept as Yves showing his true colors. The man was still attentive to your needs, still caring and kind-- but the posessiveness that had slipped out almost entirely seemed to be taking hold. And while you’d think that a growing obsession would make it more beneficial to you-- it in fact, made your difficulty increase tenfold. Yves began to direct you on what you should wear, when you should eat, what you should do for the day.

 Not only that, but his attentiveness to…more intimate needs were far more prevalent as well. Whether it was bathing, or the need that pulsed between your legs, Yve’s was there to try and take care of it. You pushed him away multiple times, awkwardly trying to tell him that you were fine-- but it never seemed to stick. He always just looked at you with a tilted, confused expression, muttering in his native tongue as if he didn’t understand. So when the foreign guide began to sleep next to you instead of the cot on the floor, and began to press his morning erection agaist your backside sleepily, you knew your protests weren’t having any effect.

You would have walked right out of that teensy apartment the moment you felt he didn’t listen-- if you weren’t so afraid. If you weren’t afraid of the loaded handgun in his locked nightstand drawer, or how easily he could destroy your life at your new university-- which he mentioned offhand multiple times in a casual manner-- you would have walked out. The power he held against you, a foreign student with failing grades and no money, was too much for you to ignore. So, you decided to bide you time. It was only a matter of weeks until he got bored with you, you decided. But his new actions didn’t seem to prove that. 

In fact, the lustful, mischievous look he gave you that evening was the complete opposite. His scrawny frame jumped atop yours, hooking his hands behind your neck and leaning in to try and kiss you. He had planned an unusually fancy dinner, lighting candles you had never seen in his apartment before and bringing a bottle of wine with some italian takeout. You tried to question him about the mound of pillows and blankets on his balcony, the sudden romantic lighting, but the male only gave you a broad statement on how it was a “celebration” of sorts.

Yves’ sudden prowling mood after dinner wasn’t a complete shock-- considering you felt his eyes on you the entire evening-- but it still caught you a tad off guard. You tried to reject him, to push him away after each kiss, but it was done with such little effort and such great fear that you stayed silent once he muttered in an annoyed tone in his own language. Yves took your silence as a surrender, friskily lowering his hand under your shirt to caress your abdomen. He rambled against your flesh in half-english as he kissed you up and down, not afraid to let out vocal little noises of pleasure, or grunts of satisfaction ones he heard your breath hitch or a hum of desire come from your lips. 

But it wasn’t until he uttered a sentence with a familiar word, did you actually reply to him. You recognized the term from messing around with your friends, when you jokingly learned dirty words from your textbooks and the internet to use when you finally entered the country. You never expected to actually utilize them unless you went to a club or bar and happened to meet someone. One of those words, was ‘virgin.’ A more tame term compared to the bunch you had memorized, but one that you and your friends had idiotically decided to research. Though, it seemed your stupid endeavors had paid off. 

As Yves repeated himself, you began to understand the sentence a bit more. The man was seeming to imply… you were a virgin? Something about you both no longer virgin-ing? Maybe he was saying that he was going to ‘virgin’ you? You couldn’t figure out what he was trying to say, only mustering up the courage to poorly explain your sexual status to him, first in english and then in a broken version of his language. You tried to repeat yourself, thinking you might have said your statement wrong-- but Yve’s shocked expression and sudden lack of kisses seemed to prove you wrong. 

“You have…. Sex?” Yve put a hand to his mouth, eyes begging you to respond.

“Uh….yes?” You said with an awkward expression; you hoped he was asking what you thought.

Yve’s let out a choked gasp, looking as if you had crushed his heart in your palm. 

He looked down, voice cracking as he mumbled something incoherent, and likely not understandable to you in the first place. 

“I….I i’m sorry?” You tried to apologize, seeing how shaken Yves had become at finding out you weren’t as inexperienced as he. Despite his eagerness, you could tell he was new to trying to initiate something you had already grown long accustomed to, new to being so intimate. It was actually in part of his eagerness that you realized he wasn’t of the same sexual history. He was full of anticipation and desire, throwing caution and logic to the wind to fulfill what he had read in books and seen in films.

 Yves seemed to treasure the act of losing ones virginity far more than you had-- but you had only noticed it now. The candlelit dinner, the mood-fitting music-- your first experience was nowhere near as romantic. 

Yves seemed shaken, his low, almost sob-filled words growing heavier. He grew more aggressive, seeming to realize something now that he had processed this unexpected news. He had assumed you were just as much of an amateur as him-- that he’d be the one to “deflower” you in an act of passionate romance-- a bubble fantasy that had just been popped. But the male realized-- if he couldn’t have his desired outcome, he’d have to make due with what he had. Which was to make sure you’d fall to your knees, experiencing the best night of ‘passion’ that would make you never want to crawl to another man again. 

He was going to claim you-- to make it so those nights you spent with others never counted. 

You could only understand a fifth of what Yves breathily moaned into your mouth, once again jumping your bones though this time much more roughly. Before you could say anything further you had felt his quick hands unbutton your pants, his own thrown to the floor. He didn’t listen as you begged him to atleast let you move to the bed, where you would no longer be visible to prying eyes on the balcony. But he didn’t care-- Yves had already taken off his shirt, intent on ripping yours away too. He didn’t care anymore if this wasn’t going to be special for the reason he expected-- he was going to make sure you would be left with a night you wouldn’t forget.

[useless-catalanfacts]

Was Ocho apellidos catalanes as bad as Ocho apellidos vascos? If you dared to watch that hate crime, I mean. I'm guessing that yeah, I bet they didn't cast any Catalans other than using them as joke

It was worse, in my opinion.

I mean, using minorities as a joke was the whole point of those movies, both are movies based solely on stereotypes. And I think it's obvious that they're movies made by Spanish people for Spanish people to make fun of minorities, but these groups being made fun of were never the target audience. The director is Spanish and the two script writers are Basque, it's easy to tell that there weren't Catalans in the production team, otherwise we would've made fun of different things. Because believe me, if there's one thing we constantly do is make fun of ourselves. We have a very self-critical sense of humour and many very popular radio and TV shows in Catalonia use this humour, but it's a humour "from inside" that makes fun of different things that when Spanish people do it based on stereotypes. (I'm thinking La Compet��ncia, La segona hora, La sotana, Polònia, the Polònia musicals, etc etc etc).

Obviously I'm not Basque so I'm nobody to talk about that, but I don't think I would have felt offended with most of the 1st movie. I think the general idea you get after watching it is "Basque people are backwards, clanistic, brute, closed, look and act according to all the stereotypes... but deep down they're kind of funny and friendly in their peculiar way".

But Ocho apellidos catalanes does not feel like that at all. First of all, remember that the Basque one starts with the Spanish main character falling in love with the Basque woman who was on holidays there and so he goes to the Basque Country to get her. She's not painted in the most sympathetic way (he, the Spanish man, is the main character and the point of view character, and the fun and sociable one), but at least she's worthy of being in love with.

The Catalans movie starts because the Basque woman was "stolen" from the sympathetic Spanish man by a Catalan, so the Spanish man goes to Catalonia to get back the girl. And the Catalan man who she moved in is the enemy, as are all the other Catalans in the movie if I remember right. The idea you get after watching that movie is even less kind to Catalans than the first one was to Basques, it's just "Catalans are stingy, liars, unreliable assholes who are obsessed with politics and hating Spain".

I think there were a few scenes in Ocho apellidos vascos that were fun and friendly and could be applied to any group, I'm thinking for example when the main character (the Spanish guy) is in an abertzale demonstration and gets carried away with the speaker, things like that are fine. It wouldn't have bothered me at all to see a situation like that but with Catalans instead of Basques, it could have been funny to make a parody of the rhymes and songs we come up with and elaborate percussion (my mother still can't clap the els carrers seran sempre nostres correctly 😂 but, continuing with the stereotypes, if that character knows flamenco maybe he could have come up with far worse ones). But the things they chose to do in that movie were just... 🤦 Not even funny, I think the only thing that was supposed to be funny to the Spanish audience was "haha Catalan accent funny", "haha Catalan people all from villages", "haha Catalan people are ridiculous for believing in independence", and "haha Catalan people are such liars that they'll even lie about the most important things to their own grandmother". It felt like a movie made solely with the purpose of confirming Spanish people that they're right about every single stereotype against Catalans and reassuring them that we're worse (rural villagers in a derogatory way, assholes, unkind, liars, unreliable, hateful) and that they do well by wanting to teach us a lesson and keep us under control (because otherwise we'd be sooooo horrible to the poor Spanish people and we wouldn't even know how to rule ourselves and would hurt our own population! Of course we would ban chorizo and jamón and that what could be worse than that!). And in the end there's a happy ending because the Catalans are defeated because the Spanish man gets back the woman.

This movie was clearly a propaganda tool of the time (it came out in 2015, when the Catalan independence movement was rising exponentially). I don't think there's no way to make a movie like this making fun of cultural differences, that's actually something I make fun of myself quite a lot irl with my foreign friends and there's a lot of material for a funny movie. But this doesn't seem to have much knowledge about Catalan culture in the first place, it's simply based on the stereotypes that Spanish people have of us.

Ah, and since you asked about the actors. Yes, it included 2 Catalan people among the main characters. One was the known anti-independence actress Rosa Maria Sardà (who has been outspoken in favour of Spanish nationalism) and the main enemy was played by Berto Romero, who is a Catalan comedian who has been working and living in Madrid for many years. But as far as I remember there wasn't any of the Catalan actors who work here and who we would have recognised and could have been a good cameo, and we have many humour actors (think everyone in Polònia for example, or the many actors in Barcelona's theatre scene). But I won't blame them for that, if I were an actress I would have refused to work on a project with this script.

[lieslab]

Awe lie, I was trying to reply on your response to my ask but I was having trouble doing so, so I’m just back here! I wanted to say no rush at all or even getting to it honestly. I just caught up on your last few responses to asks and I’m so sorry you’re going through all of that. Pet loss is so incredibly difficult and I am so sorry for your loss. Take your time please! I hope you’re doing okay, I know that’s probably a big order but I’m sending you so much love. And I completely understand feeling like you need to be upbeat or energetic and just not having it in you. I hope you don’t feel like you have to be that all the time because you definitely don’t. And I hope my request wasn’t triggering to you at all either! It’s okay to be emotionally fragile, I am sooooo much of the time. You speak such beautiful words and have wonderful suggestions for me. I appreciate the love and support, even brightness of this! I do unfortunately deal with chronic illness daily but it doesn’t always feel bad, I promise! It was kind of a sore spot in my last relationship that I felt guilty “bringing someone down” but I’ve learned a lot and have grown since then! I know now that I’m not a burden and I don’t ask for too much from my loved ones. They help me because they care about me! Your last post with Bang Chan just reminded me so much of a support system I’ve only dreamed about and thought of the idea to suggest. Unfortunately I didn’t know you were going through so much when I put that ask in 🥺. I hope you’re taking time for yourself and giving yourself a lot of grace. Grief is so sporadic. It doesn’t matter if it was a pet, I don’t want to speak for you but for me pets are always an important part of my family. And the loss of them is as great as the loss of a family member. I really hope you can think of the happy moments soon and smile instead of cry. I know it’ll take time but I know it will happen one day as well. I’m sending you all my love 🩷

I do my best to try to constantly seem upbeat because you guys don't come here for my misery, you come for my stories. Even the best people can have awful times, unfortunately. Usually, I'm pretty optimistic, but my heart is truly bleeding.

Thank you. I hope you truly don't feel guilty and feel as if you're bringing people down with your chronic illness and saying that just to make me feel better. You're not bringing people down at all. If people have empathy and compassion, they should understand. It's not something people desire. It's a horrible thing to deal with and bleh. Your wants, needs, and desires shouldn't feel like a burden. Those are the special things that make you feel like you. Healthy support systems are so important.

Honestly, the requests are going to take quite a bit, but it gives me something to look forward to. When people used to send in requests, yeah it took a long time to make them, but sometimes it gave me another reason to write. Lately, I haven't felt like writing at all and I took a week away from writing my longer stories to just take a breather and then this happened.

The weight of the world can be hard and this is just one of those times. In the meantime, I have a family cat that I kind of stole from my younger sibling. Whoops. I've moved her stuff into my room and I think she understands that I'm grieving because she keeps coming to me for attention which is really nice. She roams around, but keeps coming back to my room. I used to joke that the rabbit was her step-brother because they're two very different species.

I'm the kind of person who just appreciates companionship. I don't like being alone. Pets are wonderful for me because I cannot stand the burden of silence and the darkness that slips in during those times. Mental illness can be silent, but so deadly. It dips when you least expect it and ugh.

Nonetheless, life goes on and time heals wounds. Flowers will bloom again, eventually. They always find a way to come back through the decay and gray skies.

[fireemblems24]

Cindered Shadows Ch 4 & 5

Alright! Spoilers below for Cindered Shadows C4

BATTLE

For those of you wondering, yes, I'm still playing Warriors too, I just wanted to switch it up for the night.

Man, feels good playing some classic Fire Emblem.

So they're basically telling me, don't fight the thing. Which makes me want to fight the thing. But I only have 10 turns, so no messing around this time.

Not gonna lie, that was pretty fun. I feel like this was a pretty well-designed map. There was enough pressure to force me to get moving and enough enemy obstacles to make it challenging, but without making it impossible. Same with the turn count.

Dimitri MVP. Deserved. Him or Ashe or Yuri honestly. Though special mentions to Hapi and Constance for making short work of all the armored knights.

I just lost 30 smithing stones because my storehouse was full. I'm literally crying. Not really but ahhhhh. why.

STORY

More love for how goofy Byleth's answers can be here. I'm picking "I was pretty sure we were going to die." It's just hysterical picturing this "Ashen Demon," but in reality he's just constantly sure they're all about to die.

And no matter how many times I pick that no one believes me 😭

Aelfric's been kidnapped. That's the guy with the longish brown hair, right?

I like Yuri insisting they tell the church about it. Seems more sensible.

This letter lying around conveniently is a bit sus. Feels like a trap.

It would be super funny if Edelgard was the rat and she wanted the chalice for her conquest. I know that's not the case, but imagine.

CAMP

I'm still not used to Yuri's voice. It's so much deeper than he looks like it would be.

Ohhhhh, wait, wait, wait. Hapi says she was abducted once for someone's "twisted" experiments. Gotta be TWSITD, right? And she specifically says "her," so Cornelia likely over Kyrona. Because in Hopes she was nervous being in the Kingdom, worried she'd run into a "her." Must be Cornelia.

Mysterious Woman acting pretty sus.

Honestly, all this "Aelfric's sooooo perfect!" makes me a bit suspicious of him. The game is just pushing him as this totally pure dude a bit too hard, and there's got to be more to him then "saint."

Oh, hey, look, Claude and Dimitri hanging out again.

STORY

Alois is here now?? Finally someone found out what's going on? Because I'm sure by now Dedue and Hubert are getting ulcers.

Yuri we don't disrespect Alois in this house. You take that back.

Byleth can pick, "I don't know this man." 🤣😂

Overall, I feel like this game is doing a good job making Hilda and Linhardt feel relevant to the story, but everyone else feels tacked on.

So if we're visiting Rhea now, does that mean everyone came back up? I'm gonna call BS if Hubert and Dedue just let Edelgard and Dimitri go to this dangerous area without them.

Byleth is so uber special he unlocked the Chalice by himself! It's this kinda stuff that I don't like about Byleth.

Rhea be like, "Here, take some experienced knights to help unkidnap your beloved Aelfric and protect all the heirs to the existing kingdoms in Fodlan, who will for some reason participate in this too." Everyone, "Nah, let's do this ourselves! Who needs experienced knights and extra manpower to save someone we care about! Let's put all of Fodlan's future leaders at risk too while we're at it!" Rhea "Sounds good!" Like I know this is DLC, but there's only so much disbelief I'm willing to suspend.

And now Balthus is like, "Oh, you may be our great friend and trusted leader and we're in the middle of a crisis, but btw, how did you end up here?" Like, I know they want to explain Yuri's backstory . . . but, like, why didn't a Deer, Eagle, or Lion ask that? The writers could've tried a bit harder.

See, this is what I mean. Linhardt cuts in because his crest knowledge is important to the storyline, and the three lords also trail in because . . . they're the lords. Like, don't get me wrong, I love some more Dimitri content, but I feel there's a ton of missed opportunity here with Dimitri having a chalice around that could bring back the dead, new lore for Claude to learn, and new dirt that could get dug up on the church for Edelgard, but like, there's nothing.

So all 4 of the crests needed to unlock the chalice are in the wolves, hummm, this isn't suspicious - at all. Nope.

Constance being like, "oh, mine's a secret even from the Empire." . . . right in front of Edelgard. Not a secret anymore. See, this scene makes more sense WITHOUT Edelgard, who added nothing of substance and makes it more awkward being there.

Yuri is like, "no, this isn't suspicious at all." Actually, yes, yes it is. Dimitri's spot on saying they could've just stolen the chalice if that's all they wanted. There's more going on and Yuri's either unintelligent (or writing forced unintelligence) or deflecting because he doesn't want them to guess.

MAP

I have to run around and talk to everyone again 😭😭 I thought I'd get a level to play 😭😭 But it makes sense because we had back-to-back levels, and honestly, not mad about it because that's more tiny dialogue bits for characters I mostly like.

OMG, all the Ashen Wolves are standing around together and Hilda's just chillin there because, lamo.

Ohhhhh, Constance, asking if he's an ally or enemy??? She's the smart one, y'all, realizing how sus this all is.

WTF Linhardt 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂 "It's like casting a line and thinking you've landed the Big One . . . but then you reel it in, and it's Seteth." 🤣😂🤣😂 Confirmed he gets the best lines. Has someone drawn fanart of Linhardt fishing Seteth out of the water?

Ashe asking good questions too, proud of my boy.

This rouge's like, "why hasn't the church done more to help?" Like, bitch, Rhea offered. Go ask the Ashen Wolves why they said no.

Both Claude and Dimitri are like, "there's something weird going on." Props to them. Don't blame Edelgard for being more hung up on Constance's reveals.

STORY

There's a connection between Byleth and Yuri? Did I totally miss that or did it come out of nowhere?

LAMO, I love Byleth's answers for this. Getting flustered about the "date," telling Yuri his smile doesn't reach his eyes (poor Claude isn't unique anymore), or just "not now." IDK which to pick, I think "not now" is funniest and lines up the most with what I've picked so far for Byleth.

Yuri's like, "meet me at midnight, alone." Either dude is thirsty or he should've added "unarmed and possibly drunk or drugged." I wouldn't trust Yuri father than I could throw him. And Yuri's not big, but I'm not even 5 foot so . . .

Rhea's letting it all play out in case Sothis wakes up?

Ashe's too precious, worried about Constance wanting to turn herself in to save Aelfric.

Edelgard, "you make Hubert look like a spring chicken." She just killed Balthus and Hubert in one sentence. I disagree, though, that whole "I've never even seen sunlight" look makes Hubert look older.

OMG METODY!!! Long time no see. I wonder what Edelgard thinks. Not gonna lie, he's not unattractive if you're into unhinged people.

Aelfric is so sus, "just flee! my flock!" Like, it's too much.

The sigh thing is so weird. Like, who wrote that?

The bird flew off with Balthus, but they're like, whateves, we got Aelfric 🤣😂 🤣😂

I'm going to lie, I think I just have to turn my brain off regarding the writing around some of this.

MAP

AELFRIC IS PLAYABLE??? That's a surprise.

GOD, I want to kill Yuri. Why the hell is he asking for more demonic beasts. Like, he literally spawned them in the middle of my units and nowhere near the enemy in some areas.

Man, I wish Edelgard was closer to Metodey and see if she had unique dialogue with him. But she's all the way over in the other corner.

Balthus MVP. Honestly, deserved. Dude was dropped in a corner by himself and never broke a sweat. I was worried at first, but he never even really got hit.

STORY

Wait, what just happened?

I knew it. I knew Yuri was sus. I'm sure he'll either redeem himself or is some kind of double-agent or something because he's playable, but yeah between diverting everyone from talking about everything and never telling his friends jack shit. . . like I said, wouldn't trust him for a second.

Which is funny, because they tried that with Claude, and I'd trust Claude a fair amount at least, but with Yuri they got that "smile doesn't reach his eyes" way more convincing.

And Aelfric was always suspicious as hell.

Byleth has this "I expected nothing and I'm still disappointed" face lamo.

Dimitri's worried about Byleth 😭😭, like y'all, Dimileth is a good ship and anyone who says otherwise can eat shit.

Edelgard is like, you must be wounded. Byleth's like, no. What was the point of that dialogue?

Oh, so Edelgard actually got a line. Dimitri had the worried line, Claude had the figuring out line, so Edelgard needed . . . something.

RHEA! She figured it out. #Girlboss

I still need a fanfic where Dimitri struggles with using the chalice to bring back all his dead . . . everything. Ohhh, make it post-TS too when he thinks Dedue is dead for max pain.

Dimitri's so pissed off that the wolves are in danger.

So what does Rhea mean it can "breathe a spirit into a body" but can't bring back the departed? Like a body swap sort of thing? I get how that works for her plans for Sothis to come back, but how would it work elsewhere? And no, not at all wanting to know because fanfic. /s

So who is Aelfric trying to bring back to life? Not Sothis.

Rhea's like, "it's a serene, peaceful area," and Byleth can be like "the kitchen" channeling his inner Raphael or Ingrid, I see. I'm soooo picking that one.

LAMO, Dimitri calling me out "I'd hardly call the dining hall peaceful. Are you sure you're not just hungry?" 🤣😂 🤣😂

Right so the knights have to attack the bandits so that way theres an actual excuse for why they're not around for the next battle other than the Ashen Wolves being like "leave it to us!"

Dimitri's like "I'm sure Yuri has his reasons." Boy knows he's a playable character in the main game and spinoffs so he must be a good guy.

XXX

[its-me-im-coraline]

A push to the right direction // Victoria De Angelis

words // 1241

warnings // maybe a little cursing, was meant to be a little angsty but I don't think i succeeded in that

pairing // Victoria De Angelis x GN!Reader

author's note // if you want to be on the tag list let me know. again, for the millionth time, don't forget that sundays will be for "sleepovers" from now on, so I can have a bit of a break and still give you guys something so yay. also this originally was supposed to be out yesterday but toothace and all I could barely function at all sooooo yeah. I hope you enjoy the little beach vibes and locked in car scenrio 😂

request // yes, it was through messages by @tabi-toast so i'm putting it here

"I’d like to request some friends to lovers with Vic where the boys notice that they like each other and try to push them towards each other? Maybe some angst but mostly lots of fluff hehehe"

summary // Victoria and reader have been friends for a while, both harboring unspoken feelings. While the two are oblivious beyond their minds the boys of the band have figured out all the glances and sublte touches the two share. Well, all they need is a little push to see the truth.

It was simply agonizing. The way the two looked at each other lovingly, staring with adoration every time they were sure they would not get caught, the way they spoke of each other, constantly using the fondest of words… They were both suffering from the unspoken feelings, the constant emotion of (non existent, really) rejection making the bad days harder and the good days bad, taking away from the most important moments they shared. The friends they shared were surely close to taking off, not wanting to see the constant pinning and insecurities that come with it.

The pair tended to be so oblivious to the obvious. Writing off indications of romantic feelings as plain signs of the comfort they had with each other. The hugs, the cuddles, the hair petting, all the pet names, the spontaneous 1 am singing competitions in the car while driving to find some food. They wrote it off as plain and simple platonic affection.

But, after, as the times passed by and the two would not seem to understand the feelings they shared, they would each go to a different member, complaining and even crying about the lack of reciprocation.

“How can you know that, Y/N? You haven’t even told her!”

“Well, I know her! She doesn’t want me Thomas!”

A similar scenarios would apply to Victoria sharing her feelings. They were both so blinded by fear of losing each other that they were blind to the truth. But everyone with eyes was not. Everyone, even people that had never met them before, could see that they were dying to be together, sometimes even assuming that they are… But that only ever resulted in awkward denying and later crying over the non existent rejection.

Currently they were laying on a towel at the beach, cuddled up together while relaxing with the last sun rays of the day and the soft sound of waves. The entire group had decided that a beach day was long overdue, the pool just simply not satisfactory enough. It was not the same to be by the sea, with the waves and the beautiful view, and being by a pool with the superficial lights and all (not that they could really complain).

“So, you mean to tell me that it actually happened?!” Yelled Y/N, laughing at yet another story Victoria shared with them.

“It did! I swear!” Victoria laughed back, caressing Y/N’s back softly as they both laughed.

“Well you need to take me with you next time you visit that place again. Who knows? Maybe another incident like that will happen.”

“I surely will,” she said, leaving a soft kiss on their heads.

“Are you feeling tired, amore?”

“Maybe a little… I had a long day…”

“You can take a nap on me if you need to. I’ll wake you up before Thomas and Damiano go to get us food.”

“I suppose I could,” they responded and settled in for a small nap.

The rest of Måneskin simply stared at the pair while discussing how exactly they were not one. It seemed so obvious to them how they had strong feelings, undeniable ones at that, and they could not stand and watch. Something had to happen.

So they came up with a devious plan. It would piss off Victoria a bit but it would bring the results they needed. Damiano walked to the car they came in, thanking technology with all of his might, in his head, remembering how his car has child-proofing mechanisms at the doors so they can only open from the outside. Thus the plan was in action.

After coming back he simply settled down, going back to doing his own thing - whatever he was doing before and waiting until it was time to move forward with it.

“Agh, I’m starving! When are you guys going for the food?”

“Me too.” Thomas stated before settling back in his chair for a moment.

“Hey, Vic!” He almost yelled, the woman flinching and checking to see if he woke Y/N up.

“What is it Thomas?” her voice was sharp, body quickly moving to walk up to him, making sure to not disturb her crushe’s nap.

“Can you and Y/N go for the food? Honestly I am bored, Damiano said he’s not coming and Ethan is too preoccupied right now.” He pouted and everything, giving the older girl the softest look he could possibly manage, while pointing at Ethan having a phone call.

“Couldn’t you have thought of that before? Seriously, Thomas, right now? They are sleeping.”

“Oh, come on Vic, please! I’ll owe you!”

“Agh, agh, fine, let me wake them,” she paused,”you’re lucky I’m hungry or I would let all of you starve,” she mumbled, annoyed by the boys’ laziness, before going over to the sleeping figure on the towel.

“Hey, amore… come on, sweets, wake up. Hey. Hey,” she repeated softly, a sweet smile on her face as their eyes opened slowly.

“Vic? Oh, are the guys going for the food?”

“Not quite. The guys are being annoying and refuse to go. So, if you want to eat we have to go.”

“Oh, alright then. Give me a moment to wake up,” they said and Victoria smoothed down their sea-salt stained t-shirt.

“Ethan, where are the keys?”

“On the engine, cucciola.”

“Ok, grazie.”

With that the two clueless friends sat in the car, Victoria realizing the keys were missing a little too late.

“Agh, cazzo, Ethan! They are not her- The door isn’t opening. Why is the door not opening?”

“Mine isn’t either.”

“Ethan!” Her voice could be heard crystal clear, even with the windows separating her from the outside.

“What is it, Victoria?” He asked, a smug smile on his face as he stood outside the car window.

“What did you do?”

“Well,” spoke Damiano, “you two clueless, little shits have gotten annoying. So if you are not going to do it, we will.” He stated and Victoria’s eyes almost went out of her head, catching onto what her friend was saying.

“Y/N, Victoria has feelings for you. Victoria, Y/N has feelings for you. Now talk!”

If only glare’s could kill, Ethan would be having a very painful death as Vic kept mumbling how she’ll kill him. Y/N, on the other hand, simply stared at Victoria in adoration.

“Do you have feelings for me?”

“Look Y/N, I-”

“Answer my question Victoria! Do you have feelings for me?”

“Yes,” she replied, looking down as if she was ashamed.

“That’s not how I wanted you to find out. I wasn’t really planning on telling you cause I know that Ethan is lying but-”

“Victoria! Take a breath between sentences! What are you talking about? Ethan is not lying, you know?”

“I know, Y/N, you don’t have to sugarco- Wait, what?”

“He isn’t lying, Victoria. I really like you.” “You do?”

“Mhm, I do. Now, will you give me a kiss or are you waiting for Ethan to smash our heads together,” they joked, easing up the tension Victoria was feeling and pushing their lips to hers.

It was not anything special, just a simple, soft, kiss. What made it special was that it was to each other. They shared a kiss together, not someone else, not a stranger, not someone they had no feelings for, but someone they were yearning for, for a very long time now.

tag list: @bieberhoodforever@tabi-toast @ginny-lily @moriro-da-regina

[smalldez]

Personally, what made me ship Genyalina is the fact that while reading the books, it was clear that the author definitely put romantic undertones in their relationship. It was clear that it was not just friendship. And i'm not saying they're in love with each other exactly. I'm just saying that the chemistry and tension they have makes them move in between a scale where on the one hand is the purely platonic and on the other is the purely romantic. pt1

Totally! And honestly - I don’t think Leigh put those undertone in there :/ not to undermine the fact that it does very much read as romantic - it doesn’t necessarily matter what she intentioned, death of the author and all that - but I think a lot of the (now obvious) homoeroticism was a combination of a) Leigh trying to emphasize other characters’ beauty to highlight Alina’s Not Like Other Girls syndrome, and even more apparent for Genya in which beauty (and making oneself beautiful) is actually very important to her character and b) sometimes authors write best friends and end up with the gayest stuff ever. There’s a line in the trilogy where Alina threatens people with physical violence if they insult Genya, and there’s a line in the King of Scars duology (post-trilogy. Also I haven’t read this one I saw it in the Genya tag lmao) where David, her canonical love interest, does the same thing. Leigh I’m begging you to follow through.

ANYWAYS I totally agree with you like for me the fact that we’re “supposed” to read them as friends is a huge reason of why I like their dynamic so much. A lot of it does very much feel like - girl best friends, if you will. This idea that you can find an instant connection to bond over, the way in which friendships ARE expected to go through these hurtles, these periods of highs and lows, but in the end returning to that bond and finding so much love in the other. Also, though it is like marred by betrayal. I think there’s a lot to be said about women supporting each other that exists as best it can within the Little Palace, and how there’s much more hope for them when they are further from those specific constraints.

ANYWAYS I wrote a whole post about my favorite scene though so I’m sharing that even though it’s a little beyond the point now LOL. I can’t really pinpoint the exact moment I started shipping Alina - my memory is terrible so I don’t actually know how I felt about them during my read through, but honestly with how I absolutely will ship two girls who even breathe next to each other there’s a good chance I did lol. I probably also saw some gifsets that really set me off lol, I was making a Genyalina playlist before I even got a chance to watch the show… BUT ANYWAYS this scene kind of captures WHY I like them so much.

It’s at the beginning of episode 5, after Nadia and Marie leave and before David comes in - Of course a lot of this is because it’s the make up scene… eyes and lips…. hands on face….. so close to each other……. It does make me lose my mind like I know I said Leigh was largely unintentional but the Daisy Head and Jessie Mei Li really popped off in this respect. Like. How Alina looks up at her? The light shining in her eyes making an already caring expression even more,,,,, gay. AND ALSO, what really hits about this scene is that it essentially starts with a lie! Genya tells Alina that there are no letters from Mal, when she plays a direct role in intercepting them (as well as later on putting the special tracking ring on Alina. I’m not sure if she knew it’s exact properties, but still). A really important part of contextualizing Genyalina’s relationship in-show is that despite how close they get, and so quickly, Genya is still very much an agent of the Darkling and constantly betraying Alina, even in the smallest of ways. And yet! Despite how this has to be a facade, Genya still finds herself genuinely caring and trying to help in the ways that she can. The “be careful of powerful men” line is in this scene (with that gentle face stroke and happy “I like seeing you this way” like okay… okay) and it’s like moments like these are the most Genya can do without revealing and thus endangering her (seemingly) one chance at escape. It’s these smaller suggestions about getting away from the General, finding ways to protect yourself, that REALLY get me. But it’s still not enough. God they’re SO tragic it kills me. Going out of order, but this scene also contains a) the only real description we get of the extremely messed up circumstances of Genya’s situation, which non-book readers really don’t get as much knowledge about and b) Alina’s pure excitement for the future!!! For what she might do and explore once the Fold is gone - maybe a farm with Mal but maybe not (*cough* maybe you settle down with Genya huh is that what you’re thinking I know that’s what I’M thinking). ALSO the line from Genya “perhaps after, you could return to blue” HOPING that after these charades Alina could find herself again and get that happy ending - and absolute sucker punch of a line “I think I’m going to stick with the black, moving forward.” Like to know all these tactics the General is using are paying off? Obviously this is a sign of Alina growing in confidence in her abilities and how she wants to present that to the world but it’s also…. :(

Rant over ok but listen when the ship has no screen time what else are you supposed to do but pick apart their rare scenes… Genyalina is just sooooo good just in a vacuum, and then adding all the show events that are happening around them and how their friendship becomes so much more impactful? And then to see that as romantic? It’s just such a good dynamic!

[batboysandgirls]

How did you get into fic writing? I've been so bored and I've been lacking some fic content that I've just been wondering if I should start making my own but like... It's really hard??? I'm just wondering what your process is like or whats more likely to get you to actually write How do you get into the mood of writing, basically? I have some snippets of writing, not so confident in them but like worthy enough to not be deleted or scrapped :/

Hey, anon.  Fic writing is so hard.  I got into writing fic many, many moons ago...  I started when I was twelve, and I’m twenty now so uh.  I’ve been in the thick of it for a while now.  I got into it writing fics with OCs and canon characters I loved in some cartoons, but I eventually started reading reader inserts and then normal fics.  All of that happened because of the particular time in my life I was entering fandom, and how fandom was shaping up then.  Everything is so different, now, but I’ll talk about general things I find useful that I’ve learned over the years... all this is super long, but I think this deserves a thorough answer.

So--process!  It depends a lot on the type of fic I’m writing (fic focused on a pairing, gen, reader insert, etc.), but I usually start with a basic concept.  This concept can be anything.  Often, I think figuring out your setting is a good jumping off point.

Is this an AU?  What kind of AU? (Star Wars? High school? Post-apocalypse?)

Does this take place in the canon story?  If so, when?  (If it was a batfam fic, is it when Dick or Bruce was Batman?  Or who is Robin?  Or is there a storyline this takes place right after?  Or before?  Big events like Death of the Family or Alfred’s death are the kinds of things that are fun to explore.)

But your concept could also be something more specific.  What would happen if the batfam played Clue?  Or what would happen if current 13 y/o Damian was swapped with just-arrived-at-the-manor 10 y/o Damian in some universe hopping shenanigans?  Maybe you can pick a favorite character and center the story on them.  If I’m writing about Jason, maybe it’s a fic about him going to the Gotham library for the first time since he got resurrected, and this place he visited all the time as a kid now feels unfamiliar and haunting.  Or even simpler, like Tim, moved out of the manor, tries to make brownies and is struggling and his elderly neighbor smells the burning and volunteers to help and it’s pure.

I think the thing that usually gets me in the ~writing mood~ is an idea so exciting I’m constantly thinking about.  For example, my Explosions And Other Saturday Morning Activities story?  I started thinking about what would happen if a Wayne Enterprises intern accidentally one of the bats secret identity, and then gets dragged into the messiness...  I didn’t have the plot beats down, but once I had the basic concept, I started thinking about plausible ways for that idea to play out.  Lately, I’ve been working on some original fiction (wack I know), and I’ve mostly been excited to write it because I love all these characters I’ve created and I enjoy thinking about scenarios to put them in.

But writing is hard!  Sometimes you might have a great idea that gets you excited, and then you’ll sit down to write and... your brain halts and it’s tough.  There’s no one way to get in the writing mood.  I often start outlining what I want to write rather than writing it out, or listen to music/make a playlist for a fic, or go read something totally different than come back.  I think once you start writing a lot, you’ll figure out the strategies that personally work best.

The most important thing, though, is that writing fic should be fun for you.  I won’t necessarily say that fic writing should be for yourself, though I generally think that’s a good principle for a lot of people.  Fic writing should fulfill some inner self-desire to be creative, but, also, one of the best things about making fic is sharing!!  It’s so exciting to post something and get feedback, like “I made this!!  And someone out in the world liked it!!  And told me!!  Sweet!!!!!”  That’s how it is for me, certainly.  But you shouldn’t feel like you have to write for your fellow fans/your audience.  It should always be a fun thing for you!

In terms of not feeling confident, I have sooooo many snippets of fics that have never left my google drive, and probably never will.  But I think the only way to get better is to put something out into the world--even though you know it’s not the best--and get feedback, figure out what works, what doesn’t, and then keep going, keep writing, keep rewriting.  Like with any art, I think writers are plagued with self-doubt.  “What if people don’t like it???  I don’t even like it!!”  But, with practice and time, you’ll grow, and maybe come to be love your stories unabashedly.

The fics I wrote literally eight years ago?  I look back at them with a bit of cringe, but mostly fondness.  They’re bad, but I was so excited to write them, and, as childish and strange as those fics read now, the passion I felt then is the same passion that drives me now.  My skill has improved a LOT, but my basic love of storytelling is the same.  And when I compare then and now, I’m really proud of how far I’ve come.

And, finally, if you have more specific questions about reader inserts or like how to write batfam or anything else, feel free to message me off anon or just send more asks if that’s what you’re comfortable with.

Good luck writing!

[beulahsbastard]

YOU NEVER LISTEN!!!

This is a phrase that is spoken by me a MINIMUM of five times a day and, "I've got a lot on my mind, sometimes I forget things," is the response I get just as many times! So I know I'm my last post I left a teaser about the great key lime pie argument but I've gotta leap frog myself because this particular argument is one that is so crucial to the health of your relationship but it's also sooooo forgettable! It's one of those arguments that's you and your person have so frequently that it has become automatic, neither of you even think about it, you've effectively reached pavlovian status one of you says something then the other responds, ringing bell...salivating dog. Now, George's foray into early onset dementia started right around the time that groovy thing called covid swept the nation (also, oddly enough, when our drug use was at a significantly high peak, oops, I forgot to mention George and I are addicts who bought around the addict cycle, if you are a person prone to judgement then allow me to show you the door now, your not welcome here). Okay I sorta went off on a tangent so...George and his amnesia, about two years ago covid was here and we were using pretty heavy, suddenly George began either, "forgetting," what I said or adamantly swearing that I never said it at all to the point where heated arguments would ensue! At first, for the first year maybe, I would have sworn he was straight up fucking with me. Then, for the second year, I was 50% sure he was doing it to cause an argument or because he was trying to make me think I was crazy and 50% worried that he had a tumor or tardive dyskinesia or something (I know what t.d. is I'm attempting humor!) Now, going into year three uhhhh you know I just don't have a clue, like I said it's become automatic. But the thing is, I feel like we really need to evaluate this thing, he and I, because it's going to turn into one of those things that will set me off when we're in our 60's where I say something to him, he acts like he's never heard it before, I say that I've been telling him every single day that week and suddenly I slam the fucking rolling pin on the kitchen counter, go into the bedroom, pack my bags and tell him I can't take it anymore I'm tired of him never listening to me! I'm adding some levity to the situation but it's the truth and all of you know what I'm talking about. Maybe your relationships Pavlov experiment isn't the fact that your person doesn't listen, maybe your person refuses to chew with their mouth closed, maybe they constantly fucking spit (George does that too and it really grinds my gears but I'll save that for later,) whatever it is it doesn't matter it's something that is really so insignificant in the grand scheme of things but it will most likely be the thing that ends you!

Sooooooooooo who else has a relationship with it's own Pavlov experiment going on? I don't expect to get any answers to this for a while (if ever) but when I get at least ten responses well vote on the top three and I'll do something special for the winner! This with be Octobers contest! Let's just hope we can get this moving during October! Good luck future friend and keep your eyes open for the key lime pie incident! I'll also be posting my contact info, a little bio on me as well as on George and I! I'll eventually post other important info as it comes to me! I hope to be talking to, well anyone, soon!

[stormcrow513]

Been rewatching Warehouse 13 with my mama and I like still don't get some peoples reaction to Pete/Myka, I always thought it made sense from the start, they seem to start out as end game?

I mean I do totally see Myka and Helena I saw it at the time and even liked it a lot (still do) I was so conflicted over who I'd rather have Myka with, but rewatching the Myka/Helena arc I think it makes a lot of sense the way their story went, like two people feeling an instant attraction to each other who just click, but then one person hurts the other really badly, betrays them, and while eventual forgiveness happens love is still there, that fragile romantic seedling is crushed and there's sometimes no reliving it you move on,

and I see Myka and Pete as just never ever letting themselves think to much about each other like that, at first with Myka because she dated one partner once and is fresh off losing him the Fuck she's doing this shit again!

and Pete well we know from the episode where Myka gets whammied by the age changing camera that Pete had thought she was great from the start, but Pete I think doesn't like himself much hence some of the posturing, he's a recovering alcoholic who hurt people he loved while drinking including his ex wife and a friend while drinking and driving, he doesn't think he's 'worthy' of her

and neither want to lose the other their the most important people to each other and friendship tends to last more often then romances,

so they say shit like, Pete's like my big brother, and no way would we ever ever ever sleep together,

Honestly researching this I keep thinking if Myka had been a dude people would have sooooo sniped it, its got a slight Destial flavoring to it, dorky guy with the serious guys whose actually also a dork also he's a total nerd,

Like ship and let ship, I have no issue with people not going for it, but people were such assholes about it after the ending,

I saw people saying Myka being with Pete was the worst thing that could have happened to her, and just seriously Pete's a total fucking dork but he puts her first always, never treats her badly for being smarter then him, is always supportive of her etc. etc. in a world where so w/m relationships are abusive to some extent and women end up murdered, like really,

Like this is one of the few tv m/w relationships where the couple don't treat each other like shit constantly and they talk to each other, they play with each other (which people say that makes it brother/sister and I'm like ???, I would love to have a romantic relationship where we can be fucking idiot kids together!!!)

I'm losing my train of thought but I just love everything about their journey together, as a bisexual women its the w/m slow burn I deserve and one of the few w/m relationships I actually like let alone love and I wish people didn't hate on it so hard or dismiss Mykas bisexuality, like she was with Sam a man whose death wrecked her and had a thing for an incredible woman that didn't work out and ends up with her best friend bitch is bi but I forget we don't really exist

(If I sound bitter I am, I figured out my own sexuality around the same time I was watching this show wouldn't be surprised if it helped me figure it out, (the Myka/Helena grapling gun incident hooo) and I was so scared but excited I knew who I was... only to slowly realize that I still don't belong to gay for the straits to strait for the gays especially knowing with my sexual trauma from being raped by another girl as a child if I ever end up in a relationship it'll likely be with a man which according to a lot of people means I get my queer card revoked, to so many people your strait if your in a relationship with the opposite sex and gay if its same sex and if you end up same sex then you were never strait, if you end up in a opposite sex relationship then you were never queer, its shit and the two show fandoms that display this most are Warehouse 13 and Xena two shows I watch from there beginning with my ma and fucking adore, its just upsetting its stuff like this witch is why I avoid fandom spaces outside like ao3 as much as I can, but every now and then I want to look at some gifs and shit and its just so much toxic crap)

Edit: I also just don't get why so many people gotta dump on a character if they like a certain ship, like I'm a BIG Spirk shipper but I don't shit on Uhura and so many people make her the 'bad' guy in spirk fanfic, like WHY!? I love Uhura I just don't like her with Spock, why can't people just let other people enjoy things, like why not just go oh not for me and instead they just gotta shit all over it

[taeyungie]

hey! this is super random (i'm sorry), but do you also think sometimes giving up may be the right thing to do? i see sooooo many people criticizing those who give up on something... honestly, i truly believe that we are the only ones who know how much we're struggling with something and how close we're to our limits. of course that we must at least try and give our best in everything, but what if we just can't take it anymore or just don't want to do so? it takes a lot of courage to give up too, right? i think about it a lot... no matter how important some things are for us, i guess there's a point in which it starts to make us feel a lot sadder and exausted, more than anything...



hello sweetheart, i'm so sorry it took me so long to reply, i read your message earlier and it seems like it's really important to you so i didn't want to give you half-assed answer 😣

you know... of course there always can appear a point in someone's life when the thing they once loved and thought about it as something that will always be there.. just simply doesn't make you feel the same anymore. i can't exactly explain to you why that happens, but i want you to know that i have gone through that too, very recently actually, so in case you're going through something like this yourself right now... please remember that you're not alone, and that it's okay, it's really okay ❤️ it doesn't matter what other people think, it's most important how you feel. it's okay to let go, it's okay to give up on something that doesn't make you happy anymore. because why push further into something just out of routine, or to "make yourself feel like you used to feel before" with forcing yourself to do these things. there's no point. but i know it can be confusing, because on one hand you don't want to move on, you don't want to leave because of x reasons, and on another hand you just can't seem to feel about it the same way you used to, and at some point, if we keep pushing and pushing and we don't enjoy it anymore - it will become a painful struggle. and at this point, i think it's necessary to let go, and move on. you didn't mention what it was, so there can be many things to talk about in such perspective, because it's different if we want to move on from a job, a person, and from a passion/hobby. in my case i gave up on my passion, and it was something that i thought for many years will be my future job and passion, but it turned out that it doesn't bring me as much joy anymore, and it took me a very long time to get over it and to accept that i'm falling out of love of something that was my life purpose, and it hurt like hell. but you wouldn't question giving up on something if it didn't mean a lot to you, wouldn't you? :( so i know how you feel. whatever it is, you have to focus on your feelings, and on the way it makes you feel right now, not at what feelings it gave you before. because apparently something changed, and it's normal, it's okay, we change, we can't constantly do the same things over and over again, because nothing lasts forever, no matter how happiness it once gave us. I know it's hard, and i know it can be painful to accept, but take your time, give yourself time, try to embrace it and try to find something else that would cause similar feelings that the current thing doesn't bring you anymore, yeah? don't think about consequences because life goes on and everything will always work out one way or another, there's always a way out ❤️ so don't worry, but please give yourself time and think about it thoroughly. i hope i helped you in a way, or at least that i helped you to feel that you're not alone, because that's important too ❤️ I'm sending you lots of love

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

How would you know if you're constantly fatigued if you're constantly fatigued? For example, I've been taking a lot of dance classes in the past year and people just seem to be able to... move... and I feel like I'm just slugging along and the amount of energy they have kind of boggles me and I'm like, is that normal? Do I have a problem? Like I might say I feel fine but do I? My fine could be dead tired because that's all I know???? I do have eating issues and possible depression, sooooo...

Ironically, I’ve been too tired to give this a good answer, so let me cut to this helpful graphic:

I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and I live at about a 7-8 usually, so I’m not the best judge of what constitutes a normal level of fatigue for a healthy person. I’d guess that at about 3-4 is when it starts to interfere with your life and become a serious issue.

Since you say you have eating issues, I’d wager that you may not be getting adequate nutrition for your body’s needs, and you could easily be deficient in protein, iron, B vitamins, etc. A lot of people are also vitamin D deficient since we spend much less time in the sun than we used to, and that plays a large role in fatigue and depression.

And speaking of depression, that can 100% cause persistent fatigue. Depression often saps you of energy and motivation and makes everything you do that much harder to accomplish.

I don’t think you necessarily need to look farther than depression and nutrition to find an answer for your fatigue, but I do think you need to address those issues as best you can. If you have access to medical care, I would strongly recommend you talk to someone about getting a blood test to check for deficiencies, and talk about trying an antidepressant. Just getting your depression treated can make an absolutely enormous impact on your life, I promise. 

If you’re able to successfully treat your depression and counteract any deficiencies you might have and you’re still dealing with persistent fatigue, then you might need to look for more answers, but it’s my guess you probably won’t have to. (And it’s not as if depression and ED aren’t big enough beasts to tackle.) 

I know it sounds pretty easy for me to just say ‘get those things under control’, and I know it’s not that simple, but it’s very important. Mental illness has a huge physical impact and needs to be treated as seriously as any chronic illness or disease. You deserve to have these issues treated so you can achieve a higher quality of life.